Wednesday, October 3, 2012

April 12, 2009

Here is an excerpt from my journal three and a half years ago.

"Grandma LeNila went to the hospital today.  We're not exactly sure what happened, but we do know that her kidneys are failing.  Everything else seems to be getting better, but nothing else really matters if her kidneys don't function.

THE EFFECTS OF CHANGE
Cotton ball curls coat a pure angel bound in
Human form.  Bright pink lines curved into a 
Smile invite feelings of welcomeness and 
Gratitude.  Minute icebergs pierce your soul
Searching for answers-- true answers-- to 
Questions recently asked.  Classy colors and 
Comfortable in crowds, she independently 
Climbs to the top of the healthy, fit, and 
Active scales.  But soon, the bright pink dulls
To the color of a soft, white rose.  Cotton balls
Become rough silver wires skewing about in 
Every direction.  Icebergs melt into clear 
Puddles of Hydrogen and Oxygen, trying to 
Stay contained with no container.  And ever
So slowly that angel escapes--
Escapes to the place she truly belongs, 
And reunites with family and lovers again." 

April 19, 2009
"Grandma's been in the hospital all week.  We finally took her off her Oxygen last night.  It makes me sad.  But at the same time, I don't want her to die, but I'd rather have her go quickly than have to suffer for an extended period of time.  I think she'll go in the next couple of days.  The funeral will most likely be held on Friday."
Much to my own and the rest of my family's astonishment, Grandma got better! She got well enough to escape from her assisted living center twice!  In the ten years one of the administrators of the home had been there, there were only three escapes, and two of them were by my grandma! She loved walking and is one heck of a Utes fan.  She loves music, and passed that love to my family.  She loved the cabin, and as many of you know the cabin is one of my very favorite places.  Today, she finally did leave her life here behind, and got to see grandpa and Clyde again.  I'm sure she's up there playing the piano til her fingers hurt, and will love seeing her family come closer together as she moves on to the next step in her life.  Love you grandma, and way to hang in there (for our sakes) for three and a half more years.