Thank you for the water

Have you ever tried to describe the taste of water? Water is SO GOOD! I love it! Whenever I drink it (especially when I'm really thirsty) it tastes so refreshing and wonderful! But.. it's kinda hard to describe it's taste. Haha, I don't know. I just can't really do it. To me it tastes plain and..like water. Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to describe water during hard moments of my life. I feel things so deeply and so passionately and yet.. I can't express my feelings the way I feel them. Sometimes it's because I'm not necessarily supposed to feel the way I do. Therefore, if I show how I feel or tell others how I feel I get punished for it. Sometimes I really, truly, just can't explain how I feel. It seems impossible.

I know everyone's going to do this because Thanksgiving's coming up, but I want to write about some things I'm thankful for. Starting with....

MISSY!!! Haha, I know I've written about her before but I have to write about her agian. I love her to pieces. I love her THIS MUCH *stretching arms out as wide as I can* The example she sets to me is the best example I could hope for from an older sister. We didn't enjoy eachother's company much when we were younger, but now every time she comes home I jump and shout for joy...literally. Haha! I remember when I was little I was always so scared to go to sleep because I always had nightmares so I'd ask her if I could have a sleepover with her. I remember trying to stay up and talk to her about my first through ninth grade crushes when I slept in there, but she'd always say "okay Nat, time to go to sleep." Then the next time I came in for a sleepover she said "Okay, you can sleep here, but if you come in here we're going to sleep, not talking!" Hahaha! Oh wow. Now I still go have sleepovers with her sometimes, but instead of being across the hall, I get to go a whole hour away from home to P-town and have a party! Thank you, Missy, for being an example to me. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for teaching me to keep highschool drama out of my life as much as possible. Thank you for teaching me how to keep pushing. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being Mike's girlfriend. Thank you for living somewhat close to home. Thank you for being my sister! :-D


TYLER AND BECCA! I feel as if I'm repeating myself because I JUST wrote something on how much I love Becca, but I'm so thankful for having a brother and sister as amazing and sincere as Tyler and Becca are. Becca is just a happy, bright, fun person to be around. Not to mention she has one of the most beautiful voices known to the world. Ever. The end! But she also provides someone to talk to whenever you need it. Becca and I slept in the same bed the same night we met! Haha, I guess that's why we're so close. ;-) OH! And she was wearing my shoes on her first date with Tyler. (Missy borrowed them from me who then lent them to her and then when she saw me she said "I promise I didn't steal these, your sister let me borrow them!" Hahaha, as if I really cared :D) Tyler is probably the single smartest and one of the most spiritual people I've ever met in my entire life. He is one of the only guys I can trust with my "guy problems" and he helps me with genuine kindness. Tyler and Becca both love me and want to protect me from anything that would potentially make me sad (even if that means telling me someone's a manipulative jerk when I don't want to hear it, haha) Ty and Becca, I love you guys, and thank you so much for everything! I only wish you lived closer!!



DAVE AND KRISTIN!...AND PATTEN!
Yay for another amazing sister-in-law and the cutes nephew in the entire world! Dave and I were super close before he left on his mission. I remember we had this saying-- I think it was something he taught me when I was really little. Whenever we did something good or did a job well done we said "Thumbs up dude!!" And then stick both our thumbs up. Haha, also, I remember one Christmas morning, he gave me...something (I don't even remember what it was) but it was in a box. When I took the paper off the box I looked down at it, got extreamly excited and said "IT'S A BOX!!!! THANK YOU!!" ...I guess I really liked boxes or something. I still remember the first time I met Kristin. She and Dave were going to the Red Iguana for dinner, and they just stopped by the house for directions or something and Dave introduced us. I loved her! Even from just the little bit we said to eachother. I LOVED HER! And then I became so happy to be around her and treated her like my real big sister. If you know me..you know I'm an extremely cuddly person so when I started treating her like my sister I started cuddling with her a lot and...I'm sure she just loved it! Ahh!! Cute little PINTO! I love him to death! Whenever I need something to cheer me up I just have Dave and Kristin bring him over. I love all you guys!

As terrifying as this is, I don't have a picture of my parents together on here...except one, but my mom would kill me if I put it up because she's in her nighty. Anyway... I love my parents so much! I love my parents because they help me. They love me. They love me even when I make wrong choices. They love me when I yell and scream in their faces. They love me when I'm talking about stupid boy trouble. They love me when I say rude things about my family that I don't mean. They're supportive and..oh did I mention they love me? From endless sessions of Hair cut Lady to watching Pixar movies over and over, I love my parents always and forever.
I love technology
But not as much as you you see!
But I still love technology!
Always and forever!!

There's a little somthin' for dad :)



I know this is a picture of the Oakland temple, but it..represents what I'm trying to say. I am so thankful for seminary. Some of my most favorite spiritual expirences have happened within the walls of the East high seminary building. One particular occasion was at the beginning of this year. We listened to the words of Elder McKonkie (Sp?) 's final address as we watched a video of the atonement and Christ being nailed to the cross. It was an amazing thing for me. Something I really needed to hear/see at the time and something I will never forget. Seminary helps me in SO many ways! I love it with all my heart.

Happy Thanksgiving all! Peace out chubs! :D

365 days. 52 weeks. 12 months. 1 year.

It's amazing to look at all the things that can happen in one year. ..I can't believe how much I will have changed in two. Since November 15, 2007 I have...

-Had a brother marry (and in return gotten a wonderful new sister-in-law)
-Gone to a Spice Girls concert
-Went to Vegas with my best friends
-Made a complete fool of myself
-Been in two plays
-Met one of my best friends Rosie
-Discovered ninesquare and dodgeball
-Written two songs I absolutely love
-Had my first kiss
-Felt important
-Cried a lot
-Smiled a lot
-Laughed like there was no tomorrow
-Tried out for the basketball team
-Seen one of my best friends from Illinois
-Had a best friend move to Virginia
-Had my cousin and other friends leave on missions

There's more, I know there is, but it's amazing to think that a year ago I wasn't wrapped up in all the things I am today. It's crazy to think that I didn't have to worry about writing missionaries in Japan or that the highschool drama really doesn't matter and even though sometimes things are hard....you'll get over it!


A year ago today we were awaiting the marriage of my brother Tyler to Becca T Warthen. She's amazing. I had a blast when I went to visit them this summer. I can't imagine having better sisters-in-law than the two I have. I love Becca with all my heart and admire her in all the things she does. Living in Philly wouldn't be easy. Especially when your husband goes to one of the top schools in the country and you're surrounded by people who are....extremely smart so you may feel..a little out of place. I love her for standing up for what she believes in and for being a patriot to the United states. She loves this country more than life its self and I love her with everything I have. I wish there were some way to show my gratitude for her, but nothing I ever do will convey the feelings of love I have towards her and the difference she makes in other's lives.

A year ago today I anxiously waited to be in the car driving to Vegas where I'd spend December 6-9 with my the best friends in the entire world. We always had an obsession with the Spice Girls, so when we heard they were having a reunion tour we put our names into a drawing hoping to get lucky. We never thought we'd actually get the tickets, but we did!! We had such a blast! We went all around Vegas and then went to the concert. We went swimming OUTSIDE even though it was December...and even thought it was Vegas...it was still too cold for swimming. We had fun taking model pictures and making fun of the T.V. shows they had playing for little kids and we started dancing like Goofy. (the dog...or at least I think that's what he is...) We all stood outside this fountain (in the mpicture above) and made a wish for the future. I still haven't told anyone my wish..but it definitely did come true. ..and not too long after. Maybe dreams really do come true if we just hope it, think it, and have enough faith in it.


A year ago today I wasn't friends with one of the best friends I've ever had. Rosie is so amazing because I can go crying to her about anything and she won't make me feel like a complete idiot because I'm crying about that specific thing. She'll sit and listen to me and be sincere in trying to help me feel better. I love having that. I don't have to worry about annoying the crap out of her because I'm complaining about the same thing over and over again. She truly doesn't care. And that's one of the best qualities a friend can have. The ability to listen and be there.

I could say so much more, but I have to go eat. I'll continue this post later! Peace out chubs

Oh That I were an Angel

Ahh. If you've never heard the song..I highly recommend hearing it. The words are beautiful. I have a question. Have any of you wondered what the world would do if you died tomorrow? I sat wondering this today as a friend and I talked about Madeline Hales and how sudden her departure from this Earth was. As I sat and thought I didn't know what to think. I knew people would be sad (at least I hope..) But seriously, would anyone hold services more than a funeral for me like they did Madeline? Would anyone care after the first few weeks or maybe months after my death? Hmm...it's just an interesting thing to think about.

Oh my goodness. I have to take a minute to tell everyone how much I appreciate Audrey. I have so many wonderful friends, but Audrey is such a wonderful example to me! I never hear one word of gossip or bad talking come out of her mouth! I love her with everything I have! If anyone ever needs a friend I know she's right there waiting to help anyone who needs her. Audrey is the only girl I've kissed (on the cheek of course.. :D) and this week in the dressing room for the play we shared a new loving for eachother which was me sitting on her lap pantless!! :D Hahaha, that sounds a lot worse and a lot different than what it was. Ha, I was waiting for my dress to have the fringe added to it for the play and I got tired of sitting so I sat on her lap in my nylons and underwear :) Anyway, Audrey just makes me happy and I love her little sister like she was my own and her dad is a WONDERFUL taxi driver!

So, going back to my first paragraph! I LOVE music. I tried out for the basketball team yesterday (didn't make it) and I'm kind of glad I didn't. It would've been SO much fun! Especially because I would've gotten to spend so much time with Tori, and I really do love basketball. BUT...I realized my place is on stage. In the words of Mrs. Meers from Thoroughly Modern Millie "I could play any role if you give me the right wig!!" Okay...So that's a bit of a stretch. But I really do love acting and I love singing even more. I love the thrill of being someone else and completely loosing myself in character. I love music in it's self. I've written HUNDREDS of songs since I was little, but I have three that I absolutely love and really remember. Closed for Construction, Sunny Skies, and Meaningless words. They all have meaning and tell a story. They're all closer to my heart than...most things are. They're my way of venting my feelings. When I played Meaningless words for my friends a l ot of them said "Wow.....That's really good..but kinda depressing." Haha, it's true. I've had older posts about emotion and I've found a good way to control emotion is by writing and playing. I think I'm playing either Sunny Skies or Closed for Construction for the Sophomore assembly. I'm excited.

GGGGGGGGGAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You guys!! I SERIOUSLY can't take school! Not because it's too hard..but because I have Mr. McNaughton! Okay, I know I've written about learning vs. marks and grades..but this man is RIDICULOUS! I've written drafts of articles to put in the newspaper about learning vs. Marks and grades but I'm still deciding which to send in. Teachers should be more respected and more...ranked in their status. Without teachers no one would be able to be the lawyers, doctors, or anything else like that. We owe everything to teachers, and they deserve more respect. Likewise...teachers should teach because they WANT to and should care about helping their students.

Well...I guess that's about it for today. Peace out chubs